Goodbye 2008, Welcome 2009!!!

Ok here goes my last post for the year 2008...

Well I can’t believe how fast the past year has flown by. It was a good year I guess, filled with lots of sorrows, joy, changes and all…Ya it was the year I got hitched too :P Well that most certainly is a hugeeeeeeeee change for my life anyway…


I know that in general it was an ok year, but also a year which saw quite some problems in the world out there…We had the Mumbai blasts recently and ya the Israel – Gaza bombings which at present is going on… Can’t say that the world is becoming a peaceful place to live in anymore :( … I do hope that people realize what a waste of time/ money and lives all this fighting is leading to….Ya ya I know I can only hope, but we can all still work for it right???It was sure a year which saw a lot of natural disasters too...So i guess mother earth is also getting tired of humans and all the atrocities out there...


Well it was also a year where I got to see my best friends after a really long time and also an year where many of them joined the ‘Married’ club…Ohh boy it sure was also a year which made my pressure shoot up and made me go into fits of rage; and also a year which brought about a change in my attitude towards life in general and mellowed me down a lot from the extremely hot-tempered person that I turn out to be at times. (heheh ya I am nutty most of the time :P ) Ohh how could I forget – It was also a year which saw at least 20 or more of my friends become mothers/parents; some of them for the second time…


Anyway I am bidding goodbye to 2008 and hoping that the New Year 2009 will bring more peace and luck to one and all…Hope that whatever is in store for us is for the best and for our happiness…

The year 2009 sure does start for me with a host of weddings of friends and relatives and also quite a busy time for me as I don’t seem to have time for anything anymore….heheh I sure hope that I will have lots of holidays this coming year…Well that’s kind of like a prayer for me now….


WISHING ALL OF YOU OUT THERE A VERY VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR FILLED WITH LOTS OF BLESSINGS AND FUN…GOD BLESS…

No time for anything!!!

I have been wanting to write and post blogs regularly, but just don’t get the time now :( .....Ya ya I know I have to make the time, and that it’s possible if I try harder. The worst part is that I miss reading the regular posts of fellow blog buddies...

Now the main reason for all this is that, I started to do a second job too. Well it’s nothing to show off or anything. I mainly took it up the opportunity to be a sub-editor at an English Daily here in Kuwait. I had been passing off so many good opportunities for various reasons and this time I dint want to take the chance, plus it was a perfect way for me to kill time too as I had plenty of that on my hands earlier and I was also missing my hubby who was still in India. Since my parents and Hubby were so supportive, they made me go for it.

So in order to not lose my writing and editing skills and my touch with the journalism field in particular I took it up. But the thing now is that work at both places is getting hectic and there is a huge event coming up for which I do have a lot of stuff to get done and by the time I am done with this job, its already time to rush to the newspaper...

So now after almost 12 hours or more in front of the computer, I just do not have enough energy to come home and sit again in front of it. And I guess it’s not right too coz I leave home by 7:40am and I do rush home in between by 3:30pm to grab a bite and then its again rushing to the next work...Sitting there and editing and rewriting and after handing in my pages, I reach back home after 8:30pm and on days when there is so much work, by 9:30 etc. And that’s when I get to see my hubby who left his job and everything in India and came here just so that he could be with me. The timing sucks right!!! I know I know…. :(

I know career wise it will be a great progress for me and I am definitely learning new things, but I never knew that I would miss home so much… Me!!! Who always boasted about wanting a career only and not wanting a family life….Ohh ya life gives you everything… Well I know I should be thankful for the many blessings that I have, but ya me being me is sitting and crying that I do not have time.

Just hope that I can blog more often and hope that I can spend some time with hubby who waits for me all day… heheh the wicked me comes and sees TV from 9 to 11 and that way again I don’t spend time with him….Ya have to make time for everything and everyone….

A horror scene unfolded - Mumbai Bombings

I just don't know what to say… Its unjust, horrifying, inhumane… words are just not enough to describe it. Why such injustice? Why so much violence? What did those innocents do? I guess the questions will just go on and on … And I know that we will not get any appropriate answers for such cruelty.

The truth is that I did not follow this news well, especially when it started. All I just thought was " Ya again bombings, its becoming a regular thing now, why all this" and I turned my back on it. I know I also sound so insensitive and I guess I really was too during those days as the work pressure was just too much and I dint follow anything that was happening around me. But later only did I know that this was a huge horrifying scene unfolding in front of the whole world. --- 6o hours of terror and 195 dead … Bombs, fires, gunshots, blood, dead bodies all around!!! ---

Human lives don't seem to have any value in the eyes of fellow human beings anymore. WHY?? What has made the world so cruel? Why have people become so insensitive and uncaring?

Now to tell about another factor - Did we expect something like this to happen? Was India equipped enough to deal with such a crisis??? Why weren't we? How is it possible that the terrorists had so much modern technology at their disposal? How did they go in unnoticed with so much of warfare stuff and was not caught at all???

I guess it's true to say that this shocking and grievous act was supposed to be India's 9/11…Ya we can see blames flying around!!! This did, they did, he did, blah blah…..What's the point? That will not bring back the lives of so many innocent people. That will not pull their families out of that terror and grieving that will not bring back their joy and peace….


I do salute all the brave commandoes who gave their lives trying to save innocent lives. India has lost one of its best encounter specialists and commandoes… God be with their souls and families… The nation salutes you all!!! My heart goes out to a;; the victims and their families too...

India now has a huge task in front of it. The nation has to learn to stand together and fight against such evil forces that threaten everything and are absolute or pure evil. They should try and keep aside their differences and cultural barriers and stand as one to fight the evil common enemy....

News is still flowing in about the clean up, about finding more bombs and so on....hope all this ends soon....peace should return!!!

P.S: I Love You

I had written a post earlier about the movie P.S.: I love you.....

Well looks like i will have to take back a few things i said after reading the book....The movie is nothing compared to the book...Even though the movie dint make me cry or anything, the book did...

And reading the book was way more better than watching the movie...Its good that i was able to get a copy of the book. I felt that lots of good things in the book were left out when it was made into a movie and that emotional aspect didnt work out well too....

For all those who opposed the movie, try reading the book to see if its sweet, simple and emotional...Ohh ya by the way, the book is not the epic of the era or anything if that's what you expect, but its just sweet, written in such a nice and simple manner that it conveys the whole scene to you very well...It makes us imagine and practically see the whole situation as if its happening right in front of our eyes...

Anyway I have alwyas been crazy about reading, that must be another reason why i like it a lot....

Taggeddddddd Agaiinnnn :)

Ok La Belle Dame Sansmerci has tagged me once again…heheh well this was funny and the searches led me to some stupid pics too….anyway here goes:

As Swar said in her tag - the rules are simple:
Answer the questions below and do a Google image search on your answer, pick a picture from the results on the first page, with minimal explanation….. And ya I thought this was simple :(

1.)The age you will be in your next birthday: 29


Ya ya sure, don’t even get time to go to the bathroom nowadays: D


2.)A place you’d like to travel to: Wales

Ohh so beautiful, wish I could b there now!!!


3.)Your Favorite place: Kerala

Hahah…hum ya the monsoons r romantic…correct pic the state has used to promote monsoon tourism :P


4.)Your favorite food/drink: Chocolates/cocktail drink


Mummmm……yummyyy




Now that looks really good and i guess the pic expalins it alll :P



5.)Your Favorite pet : Puppies

Awwwwwwww!!!!!!! Aren’t they so cute, I just love em….



6.)Your favorite color combination:white and black


Hummm …well I guess it’s a nice pic :O


7.)Your favorite piece of clothing: tee and 3/4ths


Pheww, not exactly wat I had in mind , anyway watever!!!


8.)Your all time favorite song: Malayalam songs of the 80's


Wat can I say!!!



9.)Your favorite TV show: 24

Ya I like this show just too much…..




10.)Full name of your significant other: hummm let me just say Deeeee


Ya true, the light of my life :)


11.)The town in which you live in : Cochin and now Kuwait


Ya the famous Chinese fishing nets of cochin




Ya the famous landmark of Kuwait – The Kuwait Tower



12.)Your screen name/nickname: Enigma


Duhhhh!!!!!


13.)Your First job: MMG


Heheh now thats damn hilarious :P


14.)Your Dream job: I’m partly living that now – Editing and Writing


Ya apt




15.)Bad Habit you have: losing patience


hehehehe






16.)Your worst fear: seeing a snake


Ewwwww…….Sorry can’t handle even pics of snakes


17.)The one thing you’ll like to do before you die: Help the less fortunate people as much as I can


Ohhhh




18.)The first thing you’ll buy if you get $1,000,000: a special gift for my parents and hubby



sweet

Well i am not tagging anyone again...anyone who wants to take it up can do so :P

A Historic day for the U.S.

Well looks like a historic day has been made in U.S. and the world will remember this. Barack Obama swept to victory as nation's first black president on Tuesday night in an electoral college landslide that overcame racial barriers as old as America itself. (And to think that I forgot about this issue altogether and dint even look at the news today. Its only after I came to office and one of my Arab colleagues gave some snide remarks that I remembered about it and checked online to see who had won. Ya ya I know, what laziness and ignorance right? Well it’s not like I was bothered about who will win or lose as I dint see any immediate connection it made with me!)

"Change has come," he told a jubilant hometown Chicago crowd estimated at nearly a quarter-million people. The son of a black father from Kenya and a white mother from Kansas, the Democratic senator from Illinois sealed his historic triumph by defeating Republican Sen. John McCain in a string of wins in hard-fought battleground states. He also captured Virginia, the first candidate of his party in 44 years to do so(that sure is NEWS). On a night for Democrats to savor, they not only elected Obama the nation's 44th president but padded their majorities in the House and Senate, and in January will control both the White House and Congress for the first time since 1994.

Well it definitely is a shocker for me to see that the mindset of the people in U.S. has changed. It’s a good thing to see that change is being accepted and that Afro-Americans are seen a better light. Could we have ever imagined that such a thing would ever happen? Well next I guess they will have a Woman President… (High hopes na…..)

Since I certainly dint follow the race for the oval office and all and about its impact on the world etc, I don’t know how it will affect India, Indians in U.S. etc. All I can do is hope for the better. Anyway let’s give congrats to the new president and hope that he can do a better job that ‘Bush’ and his war policies.

Here’s a classic lengthy tag!

First of all, Swar I’m really sorry for taking up the tag so late. It’s been so crazy lately and had to also make that sudden trip down to India and all so hence was away from the world of blogging for quite some time now… Sorry…so here goes ---

Okkkk, I have been tagged by Swarna (La Belle Dame Sansmerci) and looks like this time the tag contains some complicated questions and its quite a long list of questions too….So here goes:

What have you realized recently?
I have realized many things actually. (The list me shockingly too long and it’s a shocking experience that I am going through too coz I didn’t realize so many things up until now) A few things that relate to my present situation is that - Life is not so easy as you think it is, marriage is not so easy either and now I can understand why people say lots of adjustments are needed, lots of sacrifices are involved etc. I dint know that balancing 2 families, a career, my own life, dreams, aims etc etc are so tough… Well thinking about having to do all this for a lifetime from now does give me the jitters. These are all the realizations that I have come upon now…well there are lots more too, but y bore all u guys with it 

Have you given your first kiss away?
Well looks like you are too late with that question…Ohh ya looong back :P

If you were to be stranded on a deserted island, who are the 11 blog buddies you would take?
Huumm, now that’s a good question…Well if it’s from the few blogs that I have begun to visit regularly and also if its blog buddies who encourage me well, then I think it'll b the following persons as they make me go wild with laughter, make me think a lot and just make me feel so much better after I read their blogs and comments – Preeti(Just mother of 2), Jane (Reflections), Arun (cockroach in cocktail), --XH—(tales of a lone wolf), Keshi (Viva forever), Solitaire , Neetu (wistfully yours), vik (Pass me everything.... Dudleybouy), Meghna (Delve into the Mind of a Budding Blogger), Tessie (The fat lady’s rantings), Thavy Dun and so many more…

Where is the place you want to go the most?
I don’t know about that. But I certainly want to visit most of the European countries and all. And the truth is that wherever I go I wanna come back home as that’s my most treasured place and that’s where I can b myself and b free(It also depends on the kind of place u call home too)…So there is no place like home…


If you have one dream to come true, what would it be?
I don’t dream unnecessarily : P LOL

Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
Humm I hope to see. Don’t have much high hopes in that as rain itself is a rare thing here and I just hope that it will rain so heavily at least one day. Well I am a little romantic too, so love that rainy climate and the beauty of rain and the prospect of a rainbow and such.

What are you afraid of losing the most now?
Right now? Nothing!!! Well if it’s about most of the time then lots of things – like my family, the love they give, the love from my hubby and so many other things.

If you win $1 million, what would you do?
Well since I have always been low on luck, let me win and then maybe I will actually think about it…. Humm ohh ya maybe I might visit the places I want to, do things I want to, give lots of it to the people I know want the money, help in making my life a lot more easier etc etc

If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her?
I don’t think I will just meet someone I love. To love a person you should know them well, by that time itself we will know a lot about each other. Well if it’s to a person I love so much, I might tell or confess most of the things, but I have learnt from past experiences that confessing completely is very bad (be it to the one you love, to friends or to ur parents)…heheh and that’s the general advice I hear too…Do not tell what is not needed…hummm well I guess it all depends on who you are confessing too I guess.

List out 3 good points about the person who tagged you
Ahhh Swarna – I have known her since 2003 June and we did have lots of good times as classmates and friends. From my perspective she is -
1. Absolutely fantastic as an overall package.
2. Very talented – she writes so well, is good at everything she does, is very pretty, very intelligent and capable of going places. She is also a very caring person and should have seen her with the HIV affected little kids that we worked with during a PR campaign.
3. A little nutty like the rest of us … hehe all 18 of us in the mass communication batch were nuts and we had some good times. But ya like me and many others in the batch she was nutty too and very sensitive too.

What are the requirements that you wish from your other half?
Love me for who I am; don’t try to change me and make me into a person that he wants; should at least try to appreciate my work and encourage me for the little good things I do; should miss me; make me feel special, loved and all that etc etc…. hehe just love me a lot basically.

What type of people do you hate the most?
Hate the most huh – well I guess that would be the back stabbers, the liars, and the cheaters mainly. I guess that’s why I don’t have too much sympathy for human beings and love animals more… At least you dog will be loyal to you and give you back love unconditionally.

What is the one thing you can’t live without?
LOVE and CARE! And some more things too like my family and all…


If you have faults, would you rather the people around you point out to you or would you rather they keep quiet?
Well I guess I would want them to point it out to me GENTLY rather than them keeping quiet about it. But I don’t want them to scream about it to me to, just make me understand in a good way...

Are you a shopaholic or not?
hummmm…….hummmmm….I am, I am not, I am, Am not…go figure…..heheh well it depends on my mood too and if given the chance yes I am, but since my parents do tend to point it out, I do control myself too.

Find a word to describe the person who tagged you
Hummm, I don’t think one word is enough…..so many r needed,…but let me at least use 3 words SMART, SWEET, Nuts hehehe….

If you have a chance, which part of your character you would like to change?
Now that is a whooper complicated quest…there r so many things I would like to change… The part that is not self-confident, the part which makes me listen and not react to s**t people put me through, the part which is sarcastic and b****y at times etc.

What’s the last shocking thing you’ve seen or heard?
Don’t remember, I tend to shut such things out of my mind.

Would you rather have love but no money or money but no love?
That’s not a practical question at all. Why is love and money compared? It cannot be at all. I really don’t understand why love n money is always compared…
We do need both to live, having lots of money and no love makes your life empty and likewise having lots of love and no money will make ur life miserable and that will end in losing love…have seen it happen around me too much.

Ok I am not tagging anyone, but whoever would like to take it up can do so. :)

Mushy, Gooey, Crazy Love???

Warning: Those who think this is too mushy and fake kindly don’t bother reading.

After reading my close buddy’s blog post about her watching the movie “PS: I love you”, I was determined to watch the movie and then later read the book when I get a chance to get my hands on the book. Guess what – I took all the pains to somehow find the movie online, because even after searching in many sites, I couldn’t get hold of it. Finally I got to watch it completely and I have got to say that I’m impressed with the movie. I mean it’s so sweet…damn sweet I say again :)

Well it’s such a sweet kind of love, a concerned love… Don’t tell me that this doesn’t happen in our world. Anyone out there who would like to argue with me about this? Well you absolutely cannot. I tell you this because – (well before I start off, don’t any of you dare think that it’s crazy) I have felt that way about my hubby. I certainly have because unlike me, I know that he finds it very difficult to live without me. I guess in my case even though I’m extremely sensitive, I know to put a hard look in front of others and keep my grief to myself. But my hubby darling, even though he does put a tough look in front of others, he just doesn’t have it in him to live without me.

I know this may sound crazy, but I have seriously thought many times about writing him long letters to prepare him to get over it and move on in life in case anything happens to me. Many a times, I did get the weird feeling that something might happen and I did start out on writing too. But ya me right, I never got to complete it. Well I guess that was coz, I told myself “na nothing is gonna happen, I wanna have a long life with the love of my life.” After all, he did wait for me for all these years and his love did not decrease one bit even after I behaved very badly with him, was extremely rude, made him cry and did all I could to distance him. Even before the wedding and engagement I was in so much of confusion and all that I hurt him over and over and told I do not wanna marry him. But the great guy that he is, he waited very patiently for me, suffered all the hurt and stood by me. He put up with all my really rude behavior and ultimate madness. People he does deserve a huge award for that I say…Coz u cannot even imagine how cruel I was and that a person can be so coldhearted and bad.(Well the circumstances did make me that way I guess!!!)

I know what I did is really bad, but I was also under so much pressure and was going through a lot of problems. And because of people comments, I was so scared and wondering if I was taking the right decision, if I will regret this and so on and many more problems that I really cannot talk about now. Unlike what many others say, we also didn’t just show a false side of ours to each other while we were seeing each other. I made sure that he saw the kind of crazy nut that I am so that later on he cannot regret being married to me. I made sure that he knew what he was getting into and what he will have to put up with… And even after knowing me completely he stuck on!!!

So how can I say that there is no great love? How can I say that such love does not exist when I myself am experiencing it? He is definitely the stable anchor in my life. He did change me in so many ways, stood by me through all my troubles and problems and hysteria when we were seeing each other. Well I know most guys would have run in the opposite direction at full speed when they got the chance to escape. No he did not do that, he waited for me for 7 long years and is still waiting patiently. (Hehe, that’s coz I had to leave India soon after the wedding to get back to work) Ohh Ya Love at first sight does exist too…not for me anyway but for my hubby :P …But I have come to believe in love (I guess) and all that after this…

Guys, it’s so amazing to have a person in life who understands you completely. He understands even the small change in my moods, knows how upset I am, if I’m happy and all that. Well it’s a little freaky too coz even before I know it, he will know exactly how I feel.

Hey just because I told this much does not mean that life is a bed of roses. We still do drive each other nuts, there are things that we still don’t understand and things that make us go mad and disagree and all that. Ohh ya at times I just feel like kicking his ass and killing him too…But amidst all this also, love does exist strongly. If you had seen the fights that we used to have, then all of you would have decided to never marry in life or have a relationship. And you know what; I do have friends who decided never to fall into a relationship and all after seeing our problems and fights. That was the intensity of our fights …LOL

That’s why I feel that if anything at all happens to me, I want him to move on in life, fall in love again, get a good life again etc. I will never stand to see him in mourning or anything. Well I better stop writing this before I make a mess of myself…hehe…Ohh I just pray to the good lord to be with us and guide us through to have a good life. I just thank him for changing me at least this much and making me a better human being and for giving me the best blessing of my life- My darling hubby “D”… Thank U sweet jesus!!!

N.B: I recently got a chance to travel down to India to meet my hubby and guess what - I finally got a chance to buy the book….. I finally bought the Book “PS: I love you”…. Hurreeyyyyy :)




Plot summary
Set in Ireland, Holly Kennedy is beautiful, smart and married to the love of her life - a passionate, funny and impetuous Irishman named Gerry. So when Gerry's life is taken by an illness, it takes the life out of Holly. The only one who can help her is the person who is no longer there. Nobody knows Holly better than Gerry, so it's a good thing he planned ahead. Before he died, Gerry wrote Holly a series of 10 letters that will guide her, not only through her grief but in rediscovering herself. The messages are Gerry's way of informing Holly life goes on. The messages include various tasks and treats Gerry has left for Holly. This is his way of letting her know he will always be there for her. Each letter sends her on a new adventure and each signs off in the same way: "P.S. I Love You." Holly's mother and best friends, Sharon and Denise, begin to worry that Gerry's letters are keeping Holly tied to the past, but, in fact, each letter is pushing her further into a new future. With Gerry's words as her guide, Holly embarks on a journey of rediscovery in a story about marriage, friendship and how a love so strong can turn the finality of death into new beginning for life.