Saturday, October 31, 2009

Unhappy!!!!

It’s been quite some time since I have blogged or blog-hopped for that matter. I really missed visiting the regular blogs that I read and I have been itching to write about many things too. Many a times I did start writing about all the things that I openly wanted to write about, but had to control myself midway as I knew that posting it wouldn’t be a good idea. I guess if the wrong people had read it, they would certainly have taken it in the wrong sense and that would have been a disaster (not that it mattered much to me!).

Anyway, I am really unhappy at present and my mental state has not been too good as I was feeling so low and depressed the whole of this past week and would have been happy if things had gone the way I wanted it to. But it doesn’t look like that it will and that makes me wonder about what I really want right now…

Luckily my spirits did cheer up after chatting about the problems to a few close friends who did give me all the support I wanted and told me all the right things. And boy am I lucky to have at least these good buddies to speak to even though they are in different parts of the world. Thank God for small blessings like these :)

I don’t know when, but I do have to find some time to visit all the blogs that I want to and I have already found that I have missed many posts which I know I’m going to enjoy when I finally sit down to it. Ahh I wish I could write a bit more openly so that I could really take a few things off my mind and be free of it. Anyway I am giving in to some things for the time being and hope that I can solve it and be rid of it in the near future, but am only wondering how I will put up with all that till then…

Anyway let’s see how things turn out and I do hope that things will go well soon enough. I guess I have to be more positive about things and try to portray a more positive image. But my main problem is that when I have been hurt really bad by somebody, its difficult for me to smile at that person the next moment and behave as if that person is the best person in the world. It will take me a few days to let the matter go and then only will I be able to smile openly… isn’t that always better rather than keeping so much bitterness in the heart and then behaving artificially on the outside? Well I hate backstabbing and all those things….Well looks like I am starting to blabber which I shouldn’t… I hope that I will return with a happy post soon!!!

12 comments:

Renu said...

But my main problem is that when I have been hurt really bad by somebody, its difficult for me to smile at that person the next moment and behave as if that person is the best person in the world....it is exactly like this with me also....To me it take months and even then the scar doesnt go completely, its better that you write it out and feel light and better I do that, thats what my blog is.But getting depressed for other's doing is like giving them right over your life. Absolutely nothing and nobody deserves that.

Enigma said...

@Renu
Ya so true...it does leave a scar and its takes a long time to let go...i really wish i could write out abot all that openly, but there r limitations as of now...ya nobody deserves to have so much control over our lives, but i guess its the way things r now...

Shades of Grey said...

Kel...we are here for you. Let me know if you need any thing. Just a drop an email and I'll come to chat. Do not hesitate. Some times the biggest mistake we make is in delaying asking for help. We all get by with our mutual support systems da.

Enigma said...

@Shades
Thanks Jane...that was so good to hear.... I know that delaying asking for help is the biggest mistake.I am really glad we all are getting some sort of support along the way... i wish i could feel better with the situation right now... just that i feel so helpless and disturbed...

Renu said...

If you trust me you can mail me..I have seen a lot in my life, may be I can provide you some perspective

Enigma said...

@Renu
Thank u so much ji... That was so sweet of u :) i really appreciate that....sure will mail u... do send me ur email id...

Butterfly said...

The easiest things to do in times like these is to turn to your friends. They will even show u how to laugh at a problem that u have been wrestling with.

The next thing u can do is watch light-hearted comedy. Eases u up immediately. Try it and let me know.

Take care and don't worry to much. They say: "Worry is like a rocking chair. You are moving but you are not getting anywhere." Cheers!

Enigma said...

@Butterfly
ya i know... Its so true that friends help u out so much during such difficult times... Its a blessing that i do have some really good friends with whom i can discuss the personal problems.. Ahh belive me comedy, tv shows to nothing was working during that particular time coz the stress was just too much...now its reduced a lot but i dont think that some things at work will ever be the same again...Ya i know i shouldnt worry about such silly things during this time...but wat to do, other factors are adding up to the stress :(

lexias said...

Even i too gone through some bad situations like this, when i read yours I recollected mine tooo... So don't worry, wott ever happens, it will be for a short time and there will always be a cheerful future waiting for you. So good luck ..

Enigma said...

@lexias
ahh i hope that things will work out soon :)
thanks for stoppin by....

Reflections said...

Hope u r feeling better now...:-))!!!

Enigma said...

@Reflections

Ohh yes Nancy thankfully i am feelin better :)