TIRED...

I am tired.
I am tired of everything.
I am tired of plastering a smile on my face and behaving like all is fine.
I am tired of acting like everything in life is wonderful.
I am tired of passing each day just for the sake of it.
I am tired of acting brave.

All i want to do is go to sleep forever and ever...

But... my little one depends upon me to act so brave.
He has no one else but me.
He was loved so much by D and hence I know that I will never be forgiven for leaving the lil one alone.

So, i must go on and on, till the day i can no more...

Oh, but that still does not stop me from feeling so tired...
I cannot stop thinking about when all this will come to an end and when will I get that peace i deserve...

TIME HAS COME TO A STANDSTILL!!!

Time has come to a standstill for me ever since that fateful day.
Even though the minutes pass me by,
The hours pass me by,
The days and weeks pass me by;
Even though the months and years pass me by,
Friends pass me by;
Everything has come to a standstill for me ever since that fateful day.
I have stopped living ever since that fateful moment.
Time has come to a stand still for me......

One more chance...

Please give me one more chance to make things right,
Please give me one more chance to correct all things wrong,
Please give me one more chance to love you more,
Please give me one more chance to care for you again,
Please give me one more chance to be with you again...

A Smile From The Heavens

When the sun, moon and stars shine down upon me
I see his mischievous and dimpled smile
That ever-loving smile brings a feeling of delight to my doleful soul
Yes, he smiles down upon me from the heavens above!

That shining smile embraces me like a soothing breeze
And encompasses me with misty memories...

Now, I wait to get a whiff of his refreshing scent,
Hear that comforting voice,
And that warmth filled laughter...
But, nothing comes by...
Nothing at all...
Yet, he continues to smile down upon me from the heavens above!

True words...

14 Years

Like a flying bird you came into my life. Your love was the strength that let me take the plunge. I didn't think that I would ever be this way but you have changed all things for me.

~ Kimberly Johnson

Long weekend coming up!

First of all, Eid Mubarak to all my dear friends around the world... May God bless you all with a wonderful and blessed year ahead...

If i were still in Kuwait, I certainly would have looked forward to the long holidays and the lazy days away from work.. But now, I have a short holiday and I don't know what to do :( Well its not like I have any choice about what to do other than going for the weekend to my hubby's place...I know that in some ways it will be good, but the little naughty one will wreck havoc there, won't listen to a word i say, won't eat anything and so on.... And his naughtiness will drive me crazyyyy....

The boredom factor will kill me :( I do want to watch movies and so on, but it wont work out this weekend anyway as there are functions coming up etc....

Anyway, I certainly will miss blog-hopping, browsing, CSI NY show, and TV programs and so on for the next few days...

Once again, happy holidays, Happy Eid and happy weekend guys!!!

A feeling of restlessness!

Why do I feel so so…… hummmm what is it…… restless??

Why am I feeling as if I’m missing something, a whole lot of things, hummm or rather missing life and its whole meaning itself???

Why do I keep feeling that I - have to, have to do something… (Oh believe me - That something is a lot of things!)

I don’t feel content, am absolutely restless most of the time and I certainly do feel ambitious too at times...

I absolutely do get really restless when I haven't worked tirelessly for days and days.

I love it when I don’t have to think and am so tired from all the creative and productive work that I will drop dead to the world any minute due to exhaustion!

Oh yes, my ways are certainly - strange, new, old or whatever…..

Waiting, more often than not, makes me restless. When I'm ready, I'm ready!

My restless, roaming spirit does not allow me to: remain in a lethargic and idle mood for very long; makes me feel all discontent if I don’t get to do something - new, travel, explore new places, new things, try new art work and so on…..

Oh yes, I certainly am a strange mystery to myself too….